What do you do?

What is it about this year that is so freeing?  Maybe it’s because I’m not pregnant and my brain cloud is finally clearing.  As I mentioned in a previous post, I am coming to terms with my conflicting ways.  This week I had an epiphany that has completely changed me.

Throughout my adulthood I have always struggled with how to answer the ridiculous question, “What do you do?”.  Thinking about a career has always been a festering sore in my side and kept me awake many a night. Well, I no longer have to waste my time searching for an answer, for the answer has been right in front of me for the last 3 years.  I’m a homemaker/stay-at-home mom/housewife and I’m really good at it.  I love what I do and my job is very important, regardless of the fact that I don’t bring home a paycheck.

I believe the reasons behind my lag in this discovery can be traced back to the thought that unless you contribute financially, you are not doing your part.  What a silly notion! Now that I realize I was choosing my own misery by allowing myself to believe I wasn’t doing enough, change is inevitable.  A giant boulder of frustrations has been knocked off my shoulders and I feel lighter.  I feel ready to finally be totally present at home and with my family.  With the worry gone, I can concentrate on things of real importance like raising my children and living a happy, healthy life together!